WHATS IN MY BAG?

Recently my bag seems to be getting heavier and heavier and turning into a baby bag instead of my personal hand bag. The babies have their own bag but I just find it so much easier to just throw thing in my bag and go. Now days I only take the babies bag if I am going to be out for a while which means I need the milk stuff which cant fit in my bag nor do I want them in my bag lol.

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I am going to let you into my bag and some of the things lurking in there. Firstly I have to have pampers and wipes because I can not afford to leave my house without them, I also carry the dummy container ( the one with the green cover) which I sometimes put some hot water just to keep them sterile. I also carry my note book all the time which I use a lot as when ever I have an idea for the blog or vlog I am able to quickly write it down before I forget. I also have my vlogging camera which I need to replace as this one has little space and the footage is not that good, a magazine is also needed as I need to keep up with whats going on in pop culture and fashion.

My make up bag which I have been using so much recently because am starting to enjoy dolling myself up. I get periods where I just cant be asked to plaster my face as it means I cant touch my face really and with the twins I feel I am forever trying to avoid or stop them from touching my face or it will end up on them but mummy has to stay on flick and presentable so we make it work lol.

I have quite a few thing in there but am sure you don’t want to hear all that’s in my bag but those are a few of the things in there and am sure I will be adding more lol.

Love Me x

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“SOMETIMES MIRACLES COME IN PAIRS”

Recently I have began to become confident with going out with the twins and not panic. When i first had them I was so scared and nervous about how I would cope being by myself with them and what I would do if they needed feeding and am alone. Since going back to doing school runs I have created a routine which work for me when am by myself without any help.

Since their last feed before I get up to get ready for the school runs is at around 4ish I take with me a feed for them which I give them around 9 once I drop my son off, once I am done I try and get home ASAP! as they tend to want to be held (especially the boy) after their feed.

I have also mastered putting together the pram which also gave me anxiety in the beginning because at the time it looked so massive and I was so overwhelmed with it but as times gone by and I have put them in and set it up it does not look that big anymore. Today someone said to me I should put a sign on the pram saying long vehicle coming through hahaha which I found kinda funny.

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Now if you look at my pram its not the usual or common one up and one down. I did not want the one up and one down because to me it was not that spacious for the babies, I also though the baby at the bottom would have felt the cold and they were too close to the ground for my liking. I also did not like that the babies could not see each other to interact so luckily we found this pram called ABC ZOOM. I really love this pram although putting the bassinets on was a bit tricky nut we mastered it in the end. The only complaint I have about this pram is the car seats fitting on, it is only compatible with about three different types of car seats which don’t come cheap and then you have to buy the adapters to connect the car seats and the pram so that just too much for me and also my friend had bought me cars seats as presents so now we leave the car seats in the car and transfer the twins into the bassinets when we are out.

Overall I feel I have mastered going out with me and am confident enough to do it by myself at this stage though I don’t know when they start moving around and walking how that will be lol but am sure we will master that stage too.

Love Me x

“MOTHERHOOD IS UNSELFISHNESS”

So am sat here at 1.30 at night I should be sleeping but just had a bath and hubby is getting me a cuppa before I go bed and the twins moved and just turned and looked at them for a while and I felt a sense of amazement, joy, grateful all types of emotions.

For me to have 4 babies better yet carry twins! is just something I never thought I could do or manage. Being able to carry twins is only possible by Gods grace because humans are not meant to carry more than one baby at a time, its not how our bodies were made.

I used to see parents with 4 or more children and I would wonder how they manage with all those children but I have found out that its doable and manageable and its beautiful.

So to all mothers out there, honey you are an amazing super woman!

Love Me x

“IT ALWAYS SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE UNTIL ITS DONE” Nelson Mandela

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So lately I have been feeling some type of way, actually tell a lie lol this feeling has been with me for a hot minute. I have been vlogging my lifestyle coming to 3 years now and i feel I am in limbo sometimes. In the beginning I used to upload every week then I went up to twice a week and now since I had the twins I have not followed a set schedule because with new borns you can’t plan too much and when you do things don’t go to plan so I tend to upload whenever I get time to edit and do some work. Recently the channel has hit 102 subscribers which am grateful for but I feel like my channel is just stuck in one place and not going anywhere which demotivates me. We all have targets we want to achieve in life and I wanted my channel to be a bit more further along than where it is now.

Being that am a stay at home mum I thought this would have been a good way to make a little income ( which is not going as planned lol) as well as preserve some memories of our family life.

I feel like am doing something wrong or am not providing the right content which make me feel like vlogging is not for me. I watch a few lifestyle vloggers whose vlogs are on the same wave length as mine and their channels are doing brilliant and mine is just mehn. Some of them started the same time as me and some after me so its not like they have been doing it for 10 years and me 3.

I even sometimes think maybe its the camera am using which is a bit ridiculous or the editing software, though with the software( I use Adobe premiere elements) I find that most people use the Apple laptop editing one which seems way better than Adobe.

So please go watch a few of my vlogs and leave me some feedback below as to how I can improve and make the channel better and successful because at this point am at a lost end. I enjoy doing vlogs and I would like to continue doing them to share how my small world lives and goes through life’s ups and downs.

I look forwards to receiving your feedback.

Love Me X

VLOGMAS DAY 7!

Hey guys hope you are all good, I cant believe am still doing Vlogmas! its a bit difficult as the editing can take a while and then you have to wait for it to load….. but all in all am still enjoying it and hope you are enjoying the vlogs am making.

P.s don’t forget to subscribe if you are enjoying the videos.

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